New Year's Resolutions

Last year, I said that I wouldn't think of any new year's resolution. I'm really bad at it. I stick to them for the first three months or so and then I'd eventually give up. But then, I realized that it's actually better to have goals to keep you on track.

The fact that I didn't have goals last year made things difficult for me. I refused to make schedules. I lost track of my weight loss goals. I was very lazy. I crammed everything. I wasted time. Precious time.

So for 2014, I have a new list of goals and resolutions :) 

Happy New Year everyone! :) 

My 2013 in pictures

Unfinished

I know. I should really be working on my editorial piece for the law journal. Or perhaps work on the papers that must be submitted early tomorrow morning. And yet, I choose to blog. There is just the need to talk about the semester that was including the stress and frustrations that came with it.

The past semester was perhaps one of the most stressful semesters of my life in law school. I had classes every damn day of the week. What's worse is that Thursdays and Saturdays were criminal law review days. As you all know, Atty. Amurao is my professor in Criminal Law Review. This means that I am always on deck for these days. To make it worse, we also know that in his class, a 60 for recit grade is inevitable as of course, he is Atty. Amurao. Sandwiched in between these days is Political Review. While it is my favorite, the tons of pages and cases to read scared the hell out of me. Of course, there's Labor Law and Civil Law which also added so much to this stress.

I started the semester with high hopes. I wanted to maintain my high grades as I dream of graduating with honors. I promised myself that I would not incur absences. I thought that being a fourth year student, it would be less impossible to get consecutive 100s from Atty. Amurao.

But of course, towards the third week of the semester, I knew that this was not possible. There were several disappointments that I faced, including the fac

-- I started writing this blogpost last Oct 31. Its Dec 8. Oh well. 

Things I'd rather do than Study:

1. Go to the mall - shop or at least window shop. 

2. Drink/Party. 

3. Travel. 

4. Sleep. 

Hello. It's been quite a while.

So... I've been MIA for five months, the last post being my Summer Jam. (Hahahaha!)

Just to update everyone, here's are twenty five facts that sum up the things I've been up to in the last five months. 

1. I started a new workout routine last March: Boxing.

2. I started doing Muay Thai last July. 

3. I gave up my Fitness First membership 

4. I said goodbye to Yoga

5. I started running again.

6. I have become very good at Skipping Rope

7. Yes, I am still addicted to exercise.

8. I spent three weeks of my Summer Vacation in the United States.

9. I went back to the city I love most, New York City. 

10. I went on  a mini-summer escapade in Acua Verde 

11. That mini-summer escapade was my one and only beach trip last summer.

12. I became addicted to swimwear.

13. I organized the first ever Mirandilla outing last May

14. I got in trouble for that.

15. I am now in my Fifth (and FINAL YEAR, God willing) in Law school.

16. My stress level has reached its maximum

17. I am still working for A1 Essays, although I keep my work at a minimal amount.

18. My parents are now paying for my tuition and my rent.

19. I am part of the first ever batch of the Legal Aid Bureau of San Beda College Alabang

20. I am the Associate Editor of the Bedan Review, the Law Journal of my school.

21. Atty. Amurao is my professor again. 

22. Atty. Amurao continues to scare me to death. 

23. My credit card bill remains my biggest nightmare

24.Oh, by the way, I have given up alcohol

25. I have tried (and enjoyed but will never do) passive exercises again. 

Summer is here. ♥

Fear of what is to come

I claim 2014 as the year I will graduate from lawschool and the year I will take the bar.
I claim 2015 as the year I become a lawyer.

Ever since I started law school, I looked forward to the day that I graduate, take the bar, pass the same and ultimately, become a lawyer. I've been patiently waiting for that day to come.

Twas last week when the thought that I will finally enter my last year in lawschool in June came to my mind. Rather than excitement, the thought sent chills down my spine.

Life in lawschool is indeed hell. Stress is inevitable. So is lack of sleep. But somehow, during the past few years, I have managed to somehow make it through this hell on Earth. So yes, I am truly impatient for this to end.

But somehow, I remain truly afraid. I am afraid of what my senior year would be like. I am afraid of the review. I am afraid of the Bar exams.

I remain truly afraid of what is to come.

I am afraid of life after lawschool....

Joining the bandwagon....but NOT on FB.

I found this on Facebook. But I didn't want to comment on someone else's post and be given with the age I am supposed to work on. Yet, I really want to do it. So yeah, here. :D

Age I was given: (Age I chose) : 17
Where I lived: Makati/Pasig
What I drove: I commuted to and from school.  
Who had my heart: My family and friends. chos. 
What I did: It was the year I started putting on makeup, trying to make a name for myself, studying and just trying to survive each and every day of my new life in the University
What did I fear: Life after college.

My age now: 24

Where I live: Makati/Pasig/Alabang

What I drive: I don't drive. I have a boyfriend. Hahaha. 

Who has my heart: Rogelio

What I do: Law school. Work. Extracurricular Activities. Exercise. I need more than 24 hours a day. 

What I fear: Grades. My credit card bill. the Bar exams. Life after law school. 

My valentine.

Back in high school, I felt envious of those girls who receive bouquets of red roses on Valentine's day. Yeah,  I never got one. Considering the fact that I never had a boyfriend (or a girlfriend hihi) that time. So yes, I have always been jealous, wondering how it feel like to receive flowers from the person you love.

On our first valentine, my boyfriend, knowing such fact gave me not one, not two, but three bouquets. It felt amazing. It never happened again. But it actually felt fine.

Some girls (including me back in high school) would always equate love with the expensive gifts that they receive on Valentine's and on special occasions. But this year, I actually realized that while I never got a single bouquet, no words can ever describe how much he loves me.

I spent Valentine's day selling flowers (the tradition of my sorority). Although my boyfriend thinks it is a stupid idea, he showed his unwavering support, driving me to school, carrying the flowers from my place to school and vice-versa, helping me deliver everything and generally feeling happy about the turnout of my project.

It was also last Feb 14 when the global campaign to end violence against women has been launched. And somehow, I feel thankful that I am with someone who does not hit me and respects me as a person. :)

I feel loved and I thank God for every minute of it. :)

Confessions on a Cold January Night

I must be drunk for posting this. But no, I've never had a sip of alcohol in two weeks. (Hurray. 10 more weeks to go then!).

Then I must be crazy.

But then again. Maybe, I just really want to get certain things out of my head and by that time I read it in a few days time, I realize how foolish these things are.

Months ago, I may have written here that I am experiencing a quarter life crisis. Doubting what I truly want, staying away from my friends and living in the past. Recently, I got over this. You may have also read that I am frustrated with the way things are as I am still stuck in law school. So basically, for the past few days, I have been contemplating on some things that rarely cross my mind. And here are my confessions on this cold January night.

1. I feel that I am still stuck in a rut. Not just with respect to my professional life which I never get tired of complaining over the past few days but I think with my personal life as well. My frustrations with respect to the fact that I have not yet graduated does not end there. My continued inability to lose more weight is kind of frustrating as well. I've been killing myself, working put almost every day and yet I have not achieved my desired body yet. Well, yes, people say that I have lost weight. But it seems that I am not contented with it. Guess I'm anorexic huh? Yeah, that ain't new.

2. I kinda hesitated with this point. That is why I talked about the bull shit about my body image. Well, truth is, I also feel stuck with respect to the point that most of my friends and HS batch mates are already getting married and starting their own families. If not, engaged. Yeah, my facebook wall is filled with engagement announcements. That is why I begin to think about when I would also experience such bliss. Then again, as I have written months ago, as I think about it, I realize that I am not ready for it. I am in love with the idea of an engagement and of a wedding, but marriage per se? That's scary.

3. Contemplating on what I have just written, I realize that I have commitment issues. All my life, I have this tendency to take on so many commitments and responsibilities only to back out on the, once I begin to experience difficulties relating to these.

4. But in spite and despite of all my complaints, I can say that I am perfectly happy with my life. ♥

Owkaaay, I am not making any sense. Hahaha.

Frustrations

Family reunions and get togethers with friends are undeniably fun. Unfortunately, they too can cause your deepest frustrations to surface.

I would always hear people complain about reunions. Most of the time, they dread comments and questions from relatives ranging from harmless ones as 'kailan ka ikakasal' to the tactless remarks Such as 'ang taba mo ngayon ah.'

I have always been grateful that I have never experienced frustrating comments like these. Oh well, except for the ang taba mo part. Haha. The fact that I am still in law school, with no decent job, spared me from questions like "kailan ka ikakasal?" Unfortunately, this past holiday season, I never thought I'd be ask with a similar question that undeniably caused my deepest frustrations to surface: "kailan ka ba gagraduate?"

I entered law school in 2009 which means that I should be graduating this year. As I have mentioned in an earlier post, I had to 'take it slow' as I work to send myself to school. It was not just a good decision, it was one that is necessary. Unfortunately, however, I cannot deny the fact that I truly, desperately want to leave school, get the job that I dreamt of and work towards the fulfillment of my dreams.

My 2012. :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

I've been three days late with this post. That's because I have been drunk for the past few days and I had to attend to something important yesterday.

2012 was the year of the Dragon, hence, my year. I thank God for all the blessings that he has given me for the past year. I also thank him for the numerous lessons that I have learned. I am looking forward for 2013. As always, I have high hopes for the new year as I know it would be a good one. :) I do not actually do New Year's Resolutions as they I have a hard time fulfilling them. So this year, I'd stick to goals (i'll probably do another post for my goals). 

2012 was memorable as it was the year of many firsts. It was the year when I've finally started mixing drinks,  making desserts, doing yoga, spinning classes, my first time to drive a car by myself. I actually look forward to more accomplishments this year. :) 

Oh and by the way, I'll be finally on my last year of law school this coming June *fingers crossed*