March 27, 2014. :)

I wonder what inspires me to write on this blog every single day. Is it because I have been watching Carrie Diaries since Monday? or is it because of the agony that waiting brings. Well. I think it is probably both. I have promised myself at the start of the year to write more often, to write about my thoughts and the things that bother me. Then there's Carrie who inspires me to write. Thus, this blog.

Well, tomorrow is judgment day and I have never been more afraid. I have been told by people to claim it. I have been told to stay positive. I live according to this mantra and I encourage others, especially my boyfriend to do the same. Unfortunately, waiting destroys you.

I have been educated in Benedictine institutions since I was 6. Thus, I have always lived in accordance with the saying, Ora et Labora or Prayer and Work. I know, I have done my best... studying all night and all day long, answering to the best of my abilities, and the like. So there's nothing much to do now but pray. Pray that God will give me what I have been dreaming of. Pray that I will soon reap the fruits of my hard work. Yes, waiting is hard, but I find solace knowing that God is there to grant my prayers.

Truly, while the past week has been difficult. It surely brought me closer to God.

Still praying for positive results for me, JR, our friends and the rest of our batch.

That in all things, God may be glorified.

Stress and craziness levels to their maximum.

I am cleaning my room at this very moment, trying to get rid of useless things to make way for my books. Reviewing for the bar will start in a week. Yes, I am claiming it in spite of the fact that the list of graduating students have not yet been released (heart pounding).

I came across the stuff from my college years. Can I just say, I am so fucking pathetic and so damn stupid. 2006 pa naman pala Anj, ginagago ka na. Wala ka pa rin ginawa. Nagpakamartir ka, tiniis mo lahat. And when the time came na hindi mo na lang talaga kaya, ikaw pa ung nagmukhang masama? My God Anj. 

I want to go back to the past and hit the 2006 Anj so hard. Ang tanga tanga kasi. 

And then I have confirmed, that my life today, despite the fact that I am 30 pounds heavier and that I have significantly changed in the last five years, is so much better. I have found the happiness I have been searching for then. 

Thank you, Lord, for this wonderful life. :) 

"Heart don't fail me now.
Courage don't desert me. 
Don't turn back now that we're here."

Four days til judgment day.

March Madness

So my hell week ended past saturday. I'm just waiting for the results. Yes, it's driving me cuhrazy. But I know, God is with me. :)

Again, pardon my scattered thoughts.